Quite messed up

woo. my life is QUITE messed up. lets see. im not going for class chalet cos HC band prac is more impt. my mom is more enthu than me for my grad nite, and i have totally no time for meself now. wad happened to FREEDOM?

heres my schedule for the weeks to come.
MON: the freeiest day of all. only have BB bball trng at night
TUE: NY band prac in the freaking early hours of the morn. then after blowing my lips to bits, i have to fly to HC band prac and attack the lip corspe.
WED: HC band prac.
THUR: NY band prac. similar to tue except i don have to go HC. BB bball trng at night.
FRI: NY band prac. ditto to tue. wushu at night.
SAT: NY alumni prac. my lips are dug out from six feet under and mutilated again. a pretty comforting thought.
SUN: church in the morn. most likely glory bball trng in the afternoon.

see my point? wth such a packed schedule, where got time to go out with friends? i gotta sk8board with siqi, play pool with part-time and co., get ready for grad nite, meet up with long lost pals etc. the list goes on and on. say it. im doomed.

i aint no wonder woman or super woman. i have no abilities to handle soooooooo much stuff at the same time and do all of them well. so how am i gonna manage? so far, im collapsing pretty well. maybe after band prac tmr i will find the key to the passion for band and unlock that passion. then maybe perspectives will change and i wont feel so troubled? shrugs.

aiyeeah. went shopping with mom today. had a great time the whole way except when trying on clothes. was exhausted when reached home. and bro was outrageously annoying today. he is such a sissy and a naggy girl. he nags more than my mom. madness.

yeeps. its 3 now. have to wake up tmr morn for PAE. im scared. i dunno how to choose JC. and i dunno wad to chose. the emails haven been composed yet. wish me luck.